RIP, Jonghyun

When I heard of the news of Jonghyun's suicidal, my thought was, “Why?” 

Thank you Jonghyun, for leaving the letter and asking his friend to show it to the world. His final words gave me a glimpse of the inner thoughts of a depressed and suicidal person. 

Hopefully I won’t have any friends who need me to pull him/her back but with better understanding, perhaps I stand a higher chance of saving someone in need if the need ever arises.

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It’s pretty traumatic when someone around you commit suicide. Even if you weren’t close with the person. One day you realized you won’t see him/her ever again. And you blame yourself for not noticing, not doing anything to help while he/she had been suffering all these while.. All the what-ifs..

It’s been years since I received The Call from A's family informing that he had passed away. He had MIA-ed from work for a few days and not responding to our calls and msgs. It was an awful shock to me when I finally realized why. 

He was middle-aged, still pretty young. His health was okay. He was always joking around with everyone. I remember there was this time when he noticed that our receptionist was quieter than usual and asking me, "Is she okay?" Then he tried to crack some jokes to cheer her up.

How would someone like him be.. Not okay??

Little did we know.. Deep inside, he was depressed and stressed. He hid it well and none of us realized it. He had planned in advance. After he got his pay, he distributed all his money. He had even cleared out his stuff in office.. :(

For a long time, I blamed myself. I felt that we could have saved him. If only we joke with him more, show more concern for him, smile to him more often.. Maybe he would not bear to leave like that.. In that way. Maybe he would see that it's not totally hopeless yet..

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So is death really what you thought it is?

Are you guys happier now?

Pre-Vacation Post

Gosh, it's already 4am plus and I am still awake!

It's raining now and cute little Ah Zai is sleeping blissful on my bed with a smile.

Going to head for the airport later in the afternoon.

Missing Ah Zai, Fluffy and the children already!

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Was packing my luggage halfway and then I left my room to take something..

When I came back..

Haha, so cute!

He's usually so manja and always like to follow me all the time..

Hope he will be okay during my absence for these few days!

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Actually, whenever I need to travel by air, I would mentally prepare myself for the worst.
Well, I know I'm probably worrying for nothing.
But.. Who knows, right?

Anyway.. Just some random thoughts.

Everything is destined. Everyone's life has to end someday.
I used to think, even if I have to die, I hope to die an honorable death.
But as I grew up, I realized it's not really that important as to how we die, but how we live.

I believe in God and that he has a plan for all of us.
Whatever that happened or will happen, He has a reason for all of that.
Have faith! :)

Anyway, my darling Cookie and Mocha are not around anymore.
If my time is up, I really hope to be able to be reunite with them again.
I miss them so much!

But sometimes I think death is the end.
Which is fine with me too.
I guess it's probably the only way for me to stop thinking too much.

So if someday I have to leave, there's no need to be sad for me.
I'm definitely in a better, happier place.

And I really hope that by then, I have made a good difference to your life or given you some happy memories.

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But of course, as much as I miss Cookie and Mocha..
I can't just leave Fluffy and Ah Zai behind.
And my 2 sponsored kids from Ethiopia!

Still looking forward to getting my own house..
And building a nice home for myself, Fluffy and Ah Zai!
I really hope to be able to fulfill my wishes soon!

So dear God,
Please bless me and my friends so that we may have a safe and enjoyable vacation!
Thank you!

Mid Life Crisis..?

   Well, a lot of things have happened but I'm just too lazy to sit down in front of my laptop to blog. 

Can't be helped.. The blogspot phone app is not user-friendly. Heh!

And so my 34th birthday just passed..
Age is never a concern to me because I look forever young. LOL!

(Not bad right? I can still pass off as their sister instead of aunt hor? Keke!)

In fact, I'm so excited to turn 34!
1 more year to be eligible to buy my own flat!
Woohoo!!
(I will definitely scold him if my Mr Right choose to show up after I got my own flat.. LOL.)

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Well, it's an unlucky birthday month, as always.. *shrugs*

This year is no exception even though I totally ignored my birthday (haha!):

- Old laptop died on me.

- New Asus laptop's motherboard also died within a month of purchase.

- Unlucky incidents at work.

- Old man kicked Ah Zai so the latter bit him.. Guess who paid the medical bills?

- Bitten by Ah Zai who had been so well behaved in front of me all the time.

I think there's some more but I didn't bother to keep track.

Used to it. Haha! But oh well, something good came out of some of them as well.

I'll just treat them as blessings in disguise.

Well, let bygones be bygone. (Ah Zai, I still love you ya!)

Anyway just a quick review / reflection of my life so far..

Family / Love

Well, my family.. Still the same. At least not worse?

At least I have accepted, moved on and not expecting anything anymore. :)

Conflicts aside, I will only focus on the nice things that they have done for the family. :)

Can't be helped that they hate me.
I'm sorry that I'm so detestable to them but I don't give a f*** about it anymore.

It's nobody's fault. I've learnt to ignore all the bad stuff.
I just hope they don't feel too annoyed by me.
If they do, too bad lor. It's their choice..

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Single and probably will stay single always.

The only things troubling me about being single are:

1. Guys always assume that I SHOULD accept them 

(without them making much efforts somemore!) 

just because I am still single at this age.

2. Annoying and insensitive people who are plain lucky to find their ideal mates 

keep telling me to get married and / or have kids. 

(It's my life, I WILL DECIDE. Tyvm. Give me some respect please. 

I can probably get your men IF I want so quit teaching me how to get a man.)

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On the positive side..

I'm starting my own family NEXT YEAR! ♥️

Don't get me wrong. Haha!

YES! My family = Me, Fluffy (my rabbit) and Ah Zai (my dog)!

(Cookie and Mocha too! They will always live in my heart.)
♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

If things go well, I may be able to get MY OWN HOUSE next year!! ♥️

Going to upside Fluffy's "house" to a super nice and spacious one.

Probably going to get him a beautiful wife to accompany him too!

Actually I'm really, really loving my single life now.

I love kids but I have 4 lovely nieces and nephews.

♥️♥️♥️♥️

 

 

Aww, adorable max! ♥️

And the fact that they are not my kids means that I will still have time for myself.

AS AND WHEN I NEED.

I think it's a good balance. :)

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Career

Resigned my job of 4 years.

Well, I guess everything happens for a reason. 

Or in these case, several reasons.

Many factors add up together and somehow I just knew (suddenly) that it's time to leave.

Many people were surprised because they knew how much I love my job and company.

Even I felt that I should be surprised. I always thought I would work here forever.

Yet I don't feel surprised because I knew this is meant to be.

(Anyway, we may be colleagues for only a few years.. Friendship will last forever!)

Sixth sense, I guess.

Not the first time that I felt the need to do something without knowing why..

And a long time later, I would finally understand why.

I trust The Feeling. ;)

Really grateful for thoughtful and understanding bosses to help me with this decision!
Thank you!

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Been job-hunting (passively) for the past few weeks.

Only got called up for 1 interview and got rejected some more.

Only 2 agencies called me.

Being an ex recruiter, I know I should be pretty sellable candidate.

I guess it's the time where everyone is waiting for their bonus and the

market is really bad right now.

Nonetheless, this situation is still within my calculated risk level

so I'm not worrying yet. Haha!



Have faith!

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Nonetheless, life has been pretty awesome these days! ♥️
(Which probably explains why I haven't been blogging.. Opps!)

I can stay up real late and go to bed in the morning..

When usually I would have to wake up for work! (Cheap thrill.. LOL!)

There were some mornings when it rained and I would feel super

blissful lazing in my bed with Ah Zai by my side and Fluffy in his cage beside my bed.



Shiok max! 好幸福! ♥️

Ah Zai used to bark whenever it's time for me to leave for work.

Lately he looks so happy all the time.. Haha! ♥️

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Sometimes I fetch the kids from school / childcare. Simple bliss indeed!

And at times I would also bring them out or just spend some time with them.

Like going to MacDonalds (omg, again!).. Haha!

Their childhood will pass by so quickly and I feel fortunate to be a part of it. ♥️

Will probably enjoy for a couple of weeks more before I start to look for jobs seriously.

Been looking through job ads diligently though!

Many jobs required a degree at least.. I'm so glad that I had made the

(painful) decision to pursue a degree back then! (Even though I doubted my

decision many times.. LOL.)

Finally left with The Last Module.

Praying hard that I can pass it smoothly and get the darn piece of paper!

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Health

I must thank FHI for guiding me on the route of my healthier journey.

However, I've slacked a lot lately.. By staying up late, waking up late and going to 

MacDonalds so often.

Just let me be lazy for a bit longer please!

I promise I'll try to start living healthily by next month. (Keyword: TRY)

Heehee!

Luckily for me, I am blessed with anti-aging genes.. LOL.

It's effortless for me to stay this way. Not gonna claim credit for my forever-young looks.

But of course, my body and complexion are still deteriorating,

although at a slower rate.. Maybe?

I still need to start being more hardworking.. (Next month start.. Okay? Haha!)

Definitely need to lose a lot of body fats.

Sob sob.. (But next month!)

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Conclusion 

So well, it may seems kinda scary that at the age of 34,

1. I have no house of my own.

2. I don't have much money in my bank accounts.

3. I don't have a job.

4. I don't have a hubby.

5. I don't have kids.

Socially, I may be deemed as a failure.

But at the end of the day, it's MY life.

I decide how I wanna live it.

I set my own KPIs.

And as far as I am concerned, I am successful because:

1. I've changed for the better and I am still trying to improve constantly

2. I pay up my bills on time and I am not in any debts except my study loan which will

be fully paid this December! (Woohoo~~)

3. I've matured a lot which I believe will help me greatly in going back to "my world".

4. I didn't succumb to social pressure and anyhow marry anyone.

5. I have 2 lovely furkids.. Fluffy and Ah Zai!

6. My 4 adorable nieces and nephews love me.

Most importantly, I know what matters to me; I follow my heart and conscience.

I believe that's what really matters.

Which is why, I can sleep so well (too well, in fact!) every night.

I will keep up the good work! Heehee!

♥️♥️♥️

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Someone left the receipt behind..

Whoa, so much money in the bank account!

Hope I can have more than this amount in bank accounts someday!

I could have, but I didn't think of saving money in the past.

Nowadays I'm a lot more thrifty but alas, too many commitments.. 

Study loans, dad's medical bills, my own bills, expenses for my furkids..

And now, I gotta save up for my house!

(As well as renovations, furniture.. Etc.)

I will 加油! 

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Anyway.. Just to reply the the question in my blog title.. 

I guess not. ;)

InfinityChallenge.. The Making of Infinity Company - Employees in Crisis

Watched the movie. Whoa, it was really good! 

I'll be willing to pay to watch it in cinema!

Do watch it too! Highly recommended!

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Really resonates with this part!

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Many times in my life, in my work..

There have been temptations.

I could have get away with it.

No one could have known.

Or many are also doing it.

But I always choose to be true to my heart.

Because I want to be able to sleep well at night.

I may not be the best, the fastest, the most important person on earth..

But I am someone who I can be proud to be. :)

ANIMALS ARE NOT TOYS!

Today I came across this video.

The guy was showing his son how to 'play' with the fish.

He took the poor fish out of the water.

There were laughter.. I don't understand what's so funny.

Everyone knows fishes cannot breathe when they are out of the water.

The poor fish was suffering. Why is that funny to them?

I wish adults can impart the right values to the young ones.

So that they may grow up and protect the animals.

And teach their young ones to do so as well.

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I'm really shocked that such cruel action is done by someone I know.
Not some stranger from another country.
Animal cruelty is so near me now.

And it makes me even more upset that the video had 17 likes.
While a few did comment that the fish was traumatised, they didnt dare to defend the fish firmly.
Probably afraid to hurt his feelings?
Most didn't say anything at all.

I sure hope it's not because they think it is okay to do that to the fish.
It's NOT OKAY.

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While I'm not expecting people to go vegan or go out of their way to save animals.. 

The least we can do is not harm animals that we come across. 

Why make them suffer? For fun?? Is that fun?? 

What's the world becoming.. 

Where is our humanity.. 

ANIMALS ARE NOT OUR TOYS.

In loving memory of my darling Cookie

Sometimes I really have to believe that life is pre-destined. 

And I should always have faith. 

No matter how lousy things may seemed to me at that point in time, they turn out to be for the better. 

For example, last Saturday I woke up early and left the house early.. 

But yet ridiculously, it took more than half hour for me to wait for the bus and reach AMK interchange. 

(It only takes me around 15 mins to walk over.) 

Was quite annoyed because I would be late for class and eventually I decided to skip it.

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THANK GOD I skipped it. 

Because of that, I was able to see Cookie smiling contentedly and peacefully..

While she's alive for the last time.

I felt truly fortunate.. Thought she was already gone.

But I put my hands on her chest, she was still breathing slightly.

Her body was soft, eyes were glassy and her paws were weak.

I know her time was going to be up.

I whispered in her ears, "I love you forever, baby girl.. Don't be scared, my heart will always be with you."

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Bibi girl,

Thank you for waiting for me to come back from Japan.

You specially came to my room to sleep with me.

And that was our last snuggling session together in bed.

You started feeling sick the next day.

That same night, you were looking uncomfortable.
But when I carried you in my arms, you suddenly turned to me and smile.

Much later, I realized that these were the special memory moments that you specially gave me.

Because you knew you were leaving and you wanted me to know you'll be fine.

And to assure me that you know I love you, and that you love me too.

I don't know why, but your smile tells me all that. 

Because of your smile, I could accept your leaving better.

I know you are not scared and in fact, you seemed to look forward to it.

In fact, I sensed that you were happy and contented.

Thank you for everything, bibi girl.

Grateful to you for staying healthy most of your life until the first scare you gave us when you were 15.

They asked us to put you to sleep. They said you won't ever recover.

But time and again, you created miracles despite all odds.

Not only did you live, you lived happily for 3 more years.

Even towards the end, you gave me a chance to say goodbye and tried to make sure I'll be fine.

You will always be my most beloved girl.

I will always remember that the bravest, cutest and most amazing JRT loves me with all her heart.

Fighting!

When I fall down..

Get up!

When I keep falling down.. 

Go ahead and cry if I am sad and tired.

After that, wipe my tears and keep going!

Because

被遗忘的回忆

一转眼6年过去了。

今天我看到了这个..

那时候的我很高兴他 'liked' 这个 post.

那时候的我.. 

以为我们会一直在一起.. 

吵了又和好，和好了又吵。

不管怎么闹都无法离开对方。

那时候的我.. 不知道他暗地里做了什么事。

所以

那时候的我.. 很爱他。

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曾经彼此爱得很努力，很累。
曾经以为苦尽甘来，开心。

后来我终于明白“海鸟和鱼相爱只是一场意外” 的意思了。

没关系。

放下了.. 还是能留下美好的回忆。
一个人.. 还是可以过得很好。

喜欢现在的我.. 谢谢你。

Random Thoughts

And It's All Coming Back To Me Now

Previously, a 14-year-old boy committed suicide by jumping off his block.

I understood why he did that but I had forgotten how he felt.

Until last Saturday, I remembered that feeling.

It was triggered by a very trivial matter.
At least it is trivial to me NOW, after I've calmed down.

But at that point in time, it was enough to push me off the edge.

Like, literally.

I remembered glancing over and thinking that jumping down isn't that scary.
But problem is, was it high enough to die from this height?
(When I am at my normal self, I am scared of heights, by the way.)

But

I Will Not Kill Myself

Never will.

This is because I firmly believe that it's a test for me to overcome.
Committing suicide is like submitting an incomplete answer sheet and leaving the exam hall before the time is up.

No way. I am NOT giving up without a fight.
I am not going to "repeat this module". I don't want to relive this kind of life again.
I am going to pass this and move on to the next lesson in life!

Thank God for the Hopes

While I was feeling unwanted and worthless.. Friends offer concern to me.
I needed that.

Thank you everyone! May God bless you all.

My Most Desired Wish

My last "dramatic" post before I ended my emotional outburst in Facebook was this.

Still feel a bit emotional when I re-read what I wrote now.

Especially the last part.

I really, really wish to have some love and family warmth someday.

But oh well.

Even if I can't be born into a loving family..

Even if I don't have the luck to find the right guy to create my own loving family with..

I can always count on little furry angels to form a loving family with me.

 

(Mocha may be not in this world physically anymore but she is always in my heart.

My house will always reserve a place for her!)

Thank you to my furry family who have always been there for me all these years.

(Except Fluffy who just came into my life last year.)

I love you all and I always will. ♥♥♥

人为什么结婚？

越来越不明白“婚姻”到底是什么。看着身旁的朋友们接了又离.. 有些甚至很快就找到另外一半。
他们曾经许下的承诺算什么呢？结婚时说的那些.. 只是在演戏给大家看吗？拍完就忘了吗？

连Selina和曾经对她不离不弃的阿中都离婚了。天啊！太惊讶了！

现在的我还是比较喜欢单身。自由自在，无忧无虑, no drama! 不用照顾别人! 不用老是生气.. Haha!
(难怪神仙不能谈恋爱~)

每次都有人问..

X: 你几岁

我: 34 (as of this year, haha)

X: 结婚了吗?

我: 没有

X: 那你有男朋友吗?

我: 没有

X: *用怜悯的表情看着我* 哦.. 放心, 你迟早会有的..

Or worse:

X: 你错了。你有问题。对付男人, 你应该要这样..

什么跟什么嘛?? 我真的，真的很喜欢现在的人生。管好自己的感情吧。

你们的烦恼肯定比我的多，好吗! 

(我要找的是一个 lifelong partner.. 不是一直听话的狗! 就连我养的狗都被我尊重，好吗! )

Message from Above?

Just blogged yesterday and today I chanced upon this!

Dear God, is that a sign that I am on the right track? :)

Finally Free

The whole world said I am bad (too lazy to elaborate) and I believed so. 

I tried to please them, to live up to their expectations but I always failed. 

I was never good enough. Perhaps I was just useless, like they said. 

Finally I realized I was wrong. 

Not the whole world feel that way about me, but just some people who meant the world to me. 

Key word: Meant. Past tense. 

I just have to find a whole new world filled with people who truly care about me. 

Thanks to all those who love me and my everything, be it the good or the bad. 

You help me break out of that "prison" and let me regain some self confidence to see the truth and accept reality. 

Memories of your kindness to me always protect my heart whenever "my previous world" attacks me.
Because of you, I am stronger.

Not going to transform overnight but today is going to be a great start!
(I just hope my heart won't soften again. No more!)

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有时很想问。

为什么你总是不高兴？

世界欠了你什么？

我又欠了你什么？

我是没法让你满意了。

也不在乎你怎么想了。

你想怎样就怎样吧。

不和你一起闹了。

我真的累了。

我想要活的开心啊～

Enough is enough.

(This is not a poem but I just felt like writing it in this way.)

Once upon a time

There was a silly little girl

Who loved her family a lot

She would over-think

And think way way ahead

That one day her parents would die

And then her sisters

Or maybe she will die first

Everyone has to die eventually

No matter who dies first

They will all be separated eventually

Every time she thought of that

She would cry secretly

She hoped that the family can die together

So that they can always be together

(When I was young, I watched 富貴開心鬼. 

I was so envious because the whole family died together and they could go to the other world together.)

Back to the story..

The silly girl finally died

The End.

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It's been many years and my heart never really revive.

In fact, it died more and more thoroughly each time some shit happens. Ha.

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After yet another incident, I think I really have enough.

I don't have any hope for them anymore.

From helpless.. To despair.. To being cold.. And eventually, Oblivious. 

Haha, I'm free now. :)

Came across this today..

Sometimes I asked God

"Why? Why can't I have a loving family?"

Not born with one and unable to create my own because I never find a worthy good guy.

No matter how hard I tried.

And yet others who take everything for granted are blessed with good families and lovers.

Why, God, why?

But nonetheless I'm still grateful.

Because I have Cookie and Fluffy now!

And Mocha! She may have left us physically but she is still in my heart.

Thank you God.

Was chatting with Elise the other day

And she reminded me: We will be 34 this year!

Finally I can have my own place soon!

So looking forward to living ON MY OWN!

My future house shall be a place full of love, peace and positive vibes.

Another random post

I have this severe sinus problem since forever.

Lately I met a 神医 who improved my condition practically instantly. 

(Not cheap though!) 

Just finished exercising and it suddenly dawned to me:

f I had exercised regularly, watched my diet (less cold water, especially) and practiced correct lifestyle habits (eg not staying up late)..... 

Perhaps my condition would have improved already?

On a side note, it feels so awesome to be exercising!! 

But why do I always stop doing it regularly after knowing how shiok it is??

Hope I can maintain my exercise routine! At least 150 minutes per week please!!

加油! 争气一点啦! Haha!

A simple day.

Today is just a day like another any other to me. (Except that I get half day off! Heehee!)
Dates, like our ages are mere numbers.
Be it last day of the year or first day of the year, everyday is a gift. 😊

After the recent scare, I'm grateful for every single day!
Because my darling Cookie is still alive and in fact, her health seems to be improving!
Plus I have Fluffy, my loved ones and precious friends who are with me everyday and not only during special occasions. Heh!

幸福就是这么简单～❤️

Nonetheless, we tend to take our simple bliss for granted so it's good to remember every now and then, I guess!

Where's my darling's smile?

Lately Cookie has been looking so, so tired and getting slimmer each day. Looking back at the recent photos / videos I took, I realised she hadn't smile for a long time. 

Dug through my IG posts and the last time I captured her smiling was 11 weeks ago! 

Will I see my darling girl smile again? 

Sometimes I wonder if we should tell her it's okay to let go. But I can't bring myself to tell her that. 

Each time she couldn't even stand on all fours, my heart ached. I couldn't breathe. My eyes got teary. 

And each time she would show me a glimpse of hope and make me believe in miracle by standing up and walk. Thank you, my darling baby girl!

Cookie is such a fighter. 2 years ago, her kidneys had problems and there was a fatty lump. The vet said she won't make it. She did. Afterwards she had stroke. Then another stroke. But she kept going. And eventually she could walk as per normal again. Then she can't see anymore due to cataracts. But she still continues to walk on her own.

Lately she was hospitalised because the growth in her stomach was affecting her food intake. The vet said she is not going to survive for long because he never see a dog live past 18. Cookie is 18 years old. And 5 months, to be exact.

But Cookie still enjoyed walking around the ward every day while she was there.

The vet also said, Cookie is the only dog he has seen, who is 18 and still able to walk on her own.

Nowadays I don't know which is more heart wrenching. To see her losing her vitality bit by bit with each passing day or to be separated from her physically. (I hope we can still stay together in spirit. Please let me be psychic and can communicate and see animal spirits.. Please!! I miss Mocha too..)

Praying for a miracle that Cookie can get stronger and regain her smile again!

I have to be strong!

I have to be positive!

A meaningful transaction

Posting the Ad in Carousell

Previously I posted this pair of leg warmers (the type that Jap school girls usually wear) in Carousell.

Had these for ages but I never wear them at all so I decided to sell them. 

(Getting too old for such cute stuff anyway, LOL!)

Uploaded the post in Carousell and within the same night, someone offered to buy them.

Yeah!

Meeting Up with the Seller

She mentioned about being in a wheelchair. Was kinda puzzled.. 

Why would she wanna buy this kind of socks for fashion when she cannot walk?

Thought maybe her legs' problem were just temporary. 

Nonetheless, I decided to go the extra mile and meet her at the station of her convenience instead. 

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Met up and was surprised that "she" turned out to be a guy! 

Well.. That was... unexpected.

Nonetheless, I didn't want to judge him or whatever. (I am brought up well, LOL!) 

I'm sure he has his reasons and I shouldn't jump to conclusion.

I didn't ask but he was pretty friendly and chatty and took the initiative to explain why he bought them.

Turned out that he didn't buy them because he was vain.

He told me that his legs feel cold at night and hence, suffers from cramps. 

He had been searching and couldn't find leg warmers anywhere.. Until he saw my post!

He also apologized to me for making me meet him despite the weather condition. 

(Actually I didn't even notice since I was in the MRT train and reading my e-book all the way.. Haha!)

I don't blame him at all since he was the one who got wet.. Not me.

And I felt kinda bad that he had to travel in his wheelchair IN THE RAIN!

What a nice guy! Still so cheerful and patient despite his leg problems!

I sure hope God will bless him and improve his leg condition.. 

If it's not possible, may he enjoy good health (in other areas) and have a happy life!

Nice chatting with him. :)

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Random Thoughts

After talking to him briefly, I suddenly I felt so fortunate to have a normal life.

I've taken my 2 legs for granted all these while.. 

Always not using them much (lazing in bed, taking buses) instead of making full use of my legs to walk / run.. 

And always grumble over "long distances" or "troublesome to travel" to places.. 惭愧惭愧啊!

Anyway, I'm so glad I am be of some help! (The socks are brand new and I sold them to him at half price.) 

Very happy that the socks are going to be used for a meaningful cause.

Hope these can help him and end his cramps at night!

花千骨.. Hooked!

Haven't been blogging much because I am so hooked to this Chinese novel!

The story is very well written!

But alas, the TV drama version was so badly amended until it ruined the whole story!

So I've been reading the novel instead.

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如果我命中注定要犯错..

但愿是因为对的人而错。