Mid Life Crisis..?

   Well, a lot of things have happened but I'm just too lazy to sit down in front of my laptop to blog. 

Can't be helped.. The blogspot phone app is not user-friendly. Heh!

And so my 34th birthday just passed..
Age is never a concern to me because I look forever young. LOL!

(Not bad right? I can still pass off as their sister instead of aunt hor? Keke!)

In fact, I'm so excited to turn 34!
1 more year to be eligible to buy my own flat!
Woohoo!!
(I will definitely scold him if my Mr Right choose to show up after I got my own flat.. LOL.)

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Well, it's an unlucky birthday month, as always.. *shrugs*

This year is no exception even though I totally ignored my birthday (haha!):

- Old laptop died on me.

- New Asus laptop's motherboard also died within a month of purchase.

- Unlucky incidents at work.

- Old man kicked Ah Zai so the latter bit him.. Guess who paid the medical bills?

- Bitten by Ah Zai who had been so well behaved in front of me all the time.

I think there's some more but I didn't bother to keep track.

Used to it. Haha! But oh well, something good came out of some of them as well.

I'll just treat them as blessings in disguise.

Well, let bygones be bygone. (Ah Zai, I still love you ya!)

Anyway just a quick review / reflection of my life so far..

Family / Love

Well, my family.. Still the same. At least not worse?

At least I have accepted, moved on and not expecting anything anymore. :)

Conflicts aside, I will only focus on the nice things that they have done for the family. :)

Can't be helped that they hate me.
I'm sorry that I'm so detestable to them but I don't give a f*** about it anymore.

It's nobody's fault. I've learnt to ignore all the bad stuff.
I just hope they don't feel too annoyed by me.
If they do, too bad lor. It's their choice..

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Single and probably will stay single always.

The only things troubling me about being single are:

1. Guys always assume that I SHOULD accept them 

(without them making much efforts somemore!) 

just because I am still single at this age.

2. Annoying and insensitive people who are plain lucky to find their ideal mates 

keep telling me to get married and / or have kids. 

(It's my life, I WILL DECIDE. Tyvm. Give me some respect please. 

I can probably get your men IF I want so quit teaching me how to get a man.)

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On the positive side..

I'm starting my own family NEXT YEAR! ♥️

Don't get me wrong. Haha!

YES! My family = Me, Fluffy (my rabbit) and Ah Zai (my dog)!

(Cookie and Mocha too! They will always live in my heart.)
♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

If things go well, I may be able to get MY OWN HOUSE next year!! ♥️

Going to upside Fluffy's "house" to a super nice and spacious one.

Probably going to get him a beautiful wife to accompany him too!

Actually I'm really, really loving my single life now.

I love kids but I have 4 lovely nieces and nephews.

♥️♥️♥️♥️

 

 

Aww, adorable max! ♥️

And the fact that they are not my kids means that I will still have time for myself.

AS AND WHEN I NEED.

I think it's a good balance. :)

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Career

Resigned my job of 4 years.

Well, I guess everything happens for a reason. 

Or in these case, several reasons.

Many factors add up together and somehow I just knew (suddenly) that it's time to leave.

Many people were surprised because they knew how much I love my job and company.

Even I felt that I should be surprised. I always thought I would work here forever.

Yet I don't feel surprised because I knew this is meant to be.

(Anyway, we may be colleagues for only a few years.. Friendship will last forever!)

Sixth sense, I guess.

Not the first time that I felt the need to do something without knowing why..

And a long time later, I would finally understand why.

I trust The Feeling. ;)

Really grateful for thoughtful and understanding bosses to help me with this decision!
Thank you!

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Been job-hunting (passively) for the past few weeks.

Only got called up for 1 interview and got rejected some more.

Only 2 agencies called me.

Being an ex recruiter, I know I should be pretty sellable candidate.

I guess it's the time where everyone is waiting for their bonus and the

market is really bad right now.

Nonetheless, this situation is still within my calculated risk level

so I'm not worrying yet. Haha!



Have faith!

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Nonetheless, life has been pretty awesome these days! ♥️
(Which probably explains why I haven't been blogging.. Opps!)

I can stay up real late and go to bed in the morning..

When usually I would have to wake up for work! (Cheap thrill.. LOL!)

There were some mornings when it rained and I would feel super

blissful lazing in my bed with Ah Zai by my side and Fluffy in his cage beside my bed.



Shiok max! 好幸福! ♥️

Ah Zai used to bark whenever it's time for me to leave for work.

Lately he looks so happy all the time.. Haha! ♥️

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Sometimes I fetch the kids from school / childcare. Simple bliss indeed!

And at times I would also bring them out or just spend some time with them.

Like going to MacDonalds (omg, again!).. Haha!

Their childhood will pass by so quickly and I feel fortunate to be a part of it. ♥️

Will probably enjoy for a couple of weeks more before I start to look for jobs seriously.

Been looking through job ads diligently though!

Many jobs required a degree at least.. I'm so glad that I had made the

(painful) decision to pursue a degree back then! (Even though I doubted my

decision many times.. LOL.)

Finally left with The Last Module.

Praying hard that I can pass it smoothly and get the darn piece of paper!

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Health

I must thank FHI for guiding me on the route of my healthier journey.

However, I've slacked a lot lately.. By staying up late, waking up late and going to 

MacDonalds so often.

Just let me be lazy for a bit longer please!

I promise I'll try to start living healthily by next month. (Keyword: TRY)

Heehee!

Luckily for me, I am blessed with anti-aging genes.. LOL.

It's effortless for me to stay this way. Not gonna claim credit for my forever-young looks.

But of course, my body and complexion are still deteriorating,

although at a slower rate.. Maybe?

I still need to start being more hardworking.. (Next month start.. Okay? Haha!)

Definitely need to lose a lot of body fats.

Sob sob.. (But next month!)

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Conclusion 

So well, it may seems kinda scary that at the age of 34,

1. I have no house of my own.

2. I don't have much money in my bank accounts.

3. I don't have a job.

4. I don't have a hubby.

5. I don't have kids.

Socially, I may be deemed as a failure.

But at the end of the day, it's MY life.

I decide how I wanna live it.

I set my own KPIs.

And as far as I am concerned, I am successful because:

1. I've changed for the better and I am still trying to improve constantly

2. I pay up my bills on time and I am not in any debts except my study loan which will

be fully paid this December! (Woohoo~~)

3. I've matured a lot which I believe will help me greatly in going back to "my world".

4. I didn't succumb to social pressure and anyhow marry anyone.

5. I have 2 lovely furkids.. Fluffy and Ah Zai!

6. My 4 adorable nieces and nephews love me.

Most importantly, I know what matters to me; I follow my heart and conscience.

I believe that's what really matters.

Which is why, I can sleep so well (too well, in fact!) every night.

I will keep up the good work! Heehee!

♥️♥️♥️

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Someone left the receipt behind..

Whoa, so much money in the bank account!

Hope I can have more than this amount in bank accounts someday!

I could have, but I didn't think of saving money in the past.

Nowadays I'm a lot more thrifty but alas, too many commitments.. 

Study loans, dad's medical bills, my own bills, expenses for my furkids..

And now, I gotta save up for my house!

(As well as renovations, furniture.. Etc.)

I will 加油! 

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Anyway.. Just to reply the the question in my blog title.. 

I guess not. ;)

Enough is enough.

(This is not a poem but I just felt like writing it in this way.)

Once upon a time

There was a silly little girl

Who loved her family a lot

She would over-think

And think way way ahead

That one day her parents would die

And then her sisters

Or maybe she will die first

Everyone has to die eventually

No matter who dies first

They will all be separated eventually

Every time she thought of that

She would cry secretly

She hoped that the family can die together

So that they can always be together

(When I was young, I watched 富貴開心鬼. 

I was so envious because the whole family died together and they could go to the other world together.)

Back to the story..

The silly girl finally died

The End.

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It's been many years and my heart never really revive.

In fact, it died more and more thoroughly each time some shit happens. Ha.

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After yet another incident, I think I really have enough.

I don't have any hope for them anymore.

From helpless.. To despair.. To being cold.. And eventually, Oblivious. 

Haha, I'm free now. :)

Came across this today..

Sometimes I asked God

"Why? Why can't I have a loving family?"

Not born with one and unable to create my own because I never find a worthy good guy.

No matter how hard I tried.

And yet others who take everything for granted are blessed with good families and lovers.

Why, God, why?

But nonetheless I'm still grateful.

Because I have Cookie and Fluffy now!

And Mocha! She may have left us physically but she is still in my heart.

Thank you God.

Was chatting with Elise the other day

And she reminded me: We will be 34 this year!

Finally I can have my own place soon!

So looking forward to living ON MY OWN!

My future house shall be a place full of love, peace and positive vibes.

A simple day.

Today is just a day like another any other to me. (Except that I get half day off! Heehee!)
Dates, like our ages are mere numbers.
Be it last day of the year or first day of the year, everyday is a gift. 😊

After the recent scare, I'm grateful for every single day!
Because my darling Cookie is still alive and in fact, her health seems to be improving!
Plus I have Fluffy, my loved ones and precious friends who are with me everyday and not only during special occasions. Heh!

幸福就是这么简单～❤️

Nonetheless, we tend to take our simple bliss for granted so it's good to remember every now and then, I guess!

FLUFFY IS A BOY!!!

Have announced Fluffy's true gender in Instagram and Facebook but I haven't blog about it.
Actually this draft had been sitting inside my "Drafts" for days but I never find the time to finish it.

So here goes..

Shocking Realization

The other day, I was giving Fluffy a thorough powder bath and I noticed..

..Testicles???

 WHAT??

OMG! Fluffy is actually a BOY!!

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So Hurt..

Told my friend about Fluffy's gender and she teased me for being a bad owner because I got Fluffy's gender wrong. 

But the truth is, even the seller told me that Fluffy was a girl too!
So obviously it wasn't obvious that Fluffy was actually a boy!
And I don't blame her because I know it's really difficult to differentiate the genders for young rabbits.

Besides, Fluffy was only about 2 months old then! I did double check on his gender but there was.. eh..
Really nothing there yet leh!

And when I happily told them how much Fluffy loves head rubs and his cute reaction to my head rubs every time.. 

The same friend commented that he is stressed and yet I keep giving him head rubs.

Urgh.. My heart got wounded again!

(Or perhaps I am too fragile.. T.T)

But but..

Am I the kind of owner who can't tell if MY pet is stressed or happy??

Am I the kind of owner who enjoys torturing MY pet??

Whenever I give Fluffy head rubs, I can tell that he loves them so much.

I can also sense that he is happy and hence, I would feel happy with him as well. 

I treat them as my close ones, which is why I shared my precious experience with Fluffy with them. But yet..
Those happy and special bonding moments are perceived as causing stress to Fluffy!! :'(

Am I such a bad owner..?

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Just to prove that I am not giving excuses..

FACT 1

You might think determining rabbit gender is straightforward, but pet store staff, pet owners with unexpected rabbit litters to re-home, and even animal sanctuaries regularly get it wrong.  

The male genitalia so obvious in other animals are hard to see on rabbits

Quote from Source

FACT 2

Even the meanest, angriest bunny loves head rubs. To give your bunny head rubs, very gently rub your fingers from its nose up to between its ears. You will probably find that your bunny relaxes and lowers its head for you to give it more rubs. 

Quote from Source

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At the end of the day.. I guess I need to believe in myself..

But whatever it is.. Honestly I still feel bad for not discovering Fluffy's correct gender earlier!
I guess that's why her words hurt me so much.. Kinda like adding salt to my wounds.

But seeing him happily munching on his food, enjoying the head rubs I give him and lazing there in contentment..
I wonder if I am just being silly and overly harsh on myself. He prolly don't even care about the gender blunder. :)

Sometimes I feel that animals are actually smarter than us because they know how to take things easy and enjoy the simple pleasures of life. ♥

So enough emo-ing! Ending this post with these cute photos! :)

Photo from Source

So cute! And this rabbit looks so much like Fluffy! ♥

Thank God for bringing Fluffy into my life..

Whenever I am stressed, angry or upset, just watching him can calm me down and make me smile again.

So lucky to have an adorable little darling like him!

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Note to self:

Forgive myself for the silly mistake!

Stop blaming myself!

Let it go.

(Not gonna talk about Frozen, Elsa or Anna here.. Haha!

This post is triggered when I realized the products I received were tampered with.

Still thinking if I should blog about this incident.. Should I?)

Anyway, here goes..

Being a typical Libra, I strongly expect fairness and justice in EVERY single matter. 

In my younger days, I held firm to my principles. 

But I guess by now.. I still get super annoyed but I have learnt to let it go~ Let it go~ 

Letting go is not being weak. 

Walking away and stop harping on the nitty gritty stuff requires more strength. 

And I choose to be strong.

Just now I was pretty annoyed. But after spending some quality time with Cookie and Fluffy.. 

Suddenly it doesn't matter anymore. :):):)

Life is wonderful, thanks to Cookie and Fluffy! ♥♥

Having lovely furry family members help me to forget about anything unpleasant. 

And brings me lots of love and joy, of course! 

Because of them, I'm much kinder and more patient these days. Lol! 

Still not that zen yet.. Will continue to work on it!

On a positive note, I just packed Fluffy's lunch box (lol!) for tmr's Causes for Animals event! 

We'll be at AMK! Come and look for us! You can feed Fluffy wor~♥

Fluffy the.. Model? ♥

Haha, as above!

Check out Fluffy's "commercial" for rabbit treats! Haha!

Can't get used to her cuteness! Heehee!

#ObsessedOwner

♥♥♥♥♥

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So grateful for winning the Best Dressed Contest and got so many goodies!

(Check out my recent post on Fluffy's 1st event and contest HERE if you haven't done so already!)

Previously I bought alfalfa hay cubes for her..

AND SHE DIDN'T LIKE THEM!

Gosh, I wasted the whole packet as a result..

  

So thanks to the hamper, I can let her try out various treats, hay and other food..

Without spending a single cent! Heehee!

Cleaner Air Required Urgently!!

Been feeling unwell due to the "Hagen Daz" (haze 跟 dust, lol) lately.

Suffering from runny nose, "itchy" throat, irritated eyes and even headaches!
I guess that is not surprising considering that I have sinus.. :(

While typing this entry, the PSI was.. 

Cute app, by the way! Haha!

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Recently I discovered the existence of air purifiers! 

Omg, I can't believe that I was so ignorant..!! 

Even without the haze, I believe an air purifier is beneficial to me since I have sinus!

Plus I have Fluffy now and she stays in my room..
It'll be good to have a good air purifier that helps to collect her fur!
And with the haze seemingly getting worse these days, we need clean air!

Especially my dear little Fluffy! (Love this photo of her.. Haha!)

She's only 5 months old.. My vulnerable baby! #OverprotectiveOwner LOL!

Do You Know..
Small animals are even more susceptible to the effects of haze since their lungs' capacities are much smaller!

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Many times, I was so tempted to just grab one from the store..
But on second thoughts, air purifiers are so expensive!
And I intend to use it for at least a few years if I do get one!

Since it's a long haze-full weekend.. I guess the most ideal activity for me is..

Staying at home and doing research on AIR PURIFIERS!

How to Choose an Air Purifier
Click ↑ to find out!

Whoa! I was quite shocked to realise this:

Don’t confuse the term “true HEPA” with “HEPA-type” when considering an air purifier. 

They are drastically different. 

Wah! This is so misleading!

Silently cursed unethical brands for wasting my time and efforts on checking up their products..
By misleading me with the term, "HEPA-type".. Grr!

But I'm glad that I knew this before I bought any! Thank God!

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After overloading myself with information and reviews..

Finally I decided to get this!

Honeywell QuietCare True HEPA Air Purifier with Germ Reduction, 17000-S

Recommended by many users online!

Design isn't as pretty as the Novita one that I almost bought..

But I do believe this is better.

(废话 right! Otherwise, why would I order this instead.. Haha!)

Managed to get a good deal for it!

But alas, the transformer is out of stock so I can only get it next week!

So looking forward to receiving it!

Probably will do a review on this when I receive it!

Heh!

In the meantime, here are some reviews that I came across!

Users' Reviews from Amazon

Personal Blog: Neurotic Ramblings

So informative!

http://neurotic-ramblings-sg.blogspot.sg/2013/07/air-purifiers-for-haze.html

http://neurotic-ramblings-sg.blogspot.sg/2013/07/our-honeywell-air-purifiers-from-amazon.html

Youtube Reviews / Guide

Transpose Leo

(Same brand but not the same model I ordered though.)

HoneywellStore

Good guide for me when I get it! :)

A couple of days more before I get my air purifier!!

Until then, I just gonna TAHAN!!

Wish me luck.. Sob sob!

Fluffy's 1st Pet Event! ♥

Last Sunday I attended this pet's event which was organized by RHQ Rabbit Headquarters.

Fluffy's 1st ever Pet Event!

Little did we expect a little surprise for us.. Keke!

Read on to find out what happened!

Was carrying too many stuff and keeping a close watch on Stacci so I didn't really focus on taking photos. 

Please make do with the (poor) quality of the photos ya! >.<

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Before the Actual Day of Event..

Last month, I saw this in Facebook and quickly RSVPed! 

Just 1 Fluffy alone already makes me so happy.. 

Not to mention an event full of rabbits and other small animals!! 

Woohoo~~♥

Saw this and decided to enrol Fluffy for the Best Dressed Contest as well!

Didn't expect to win anything at all..

Basically I joined for the sake of free goodie bag and free photography session! 

Wahaha.. Opps!

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2 Days Before the Actual Day of Event.. What to Wear!

Fortunately I had bought this lion mane wig for Fluffy previously.

Didn't expect it to come in handy!

Trying out the costume and testing if it would fall off easily..

Well, it did fall off easily!

And something seemed not quite right..

(Later I went to search for photos of real lions and realized that the 'mane' part wasn't quite right!)

Another photo! ♥

Well, this is not relevant to this post.. LOL!

Accidentally captured this shot of her tongue sticking out.. 

OMG SO CUTE! I SO GOTTA SHARE THIS PRECIOUS PHOTO! ♥

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1 Day Before the Actual Day of Event.. Finishing Touches!

Kan cheong liao!!

Went out to buy some stuff to adjust the costume so that it fit Fluffy better!

And I posted the sneak preview in my Instagram..♥

RAWRR!

Very satisfied! ;)

Didn't expect to win but I really wanted to show off how super cute she is!!

LOL! #ObsessedOwner

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On the Actual Day of Event.. Finally!

 Guess who came along with me? ♥

(Can you spot Fluffy? Heehee!)

To match my bunny t-shirt..

I wore my bunny shoes too! Heh!

(Not my photo, but this is exactly how my bunny shoes look like.. Love them!)

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At the Event..

Stacci and I enjoyed ourselves so much!! ♥♥

Stacci was proud to be seen with Fluffy.. LOL!

And I like how adorably biased she was..

Me: Which rabbit is the cutest there?

Her: Of course Fluffy lah!

Hahaha!

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And did I mention that I was probably the most "kiasu" pet owner there?

Brought along Fluffy's costume and harness..

(Plus her cage, food and drinks too, of course!)

Kept changing her clothes as and when needed.. LOL!

So busy sia!

Some people approached us to find out more about rabbits in general.

Or simply just to sayang Fluffy and take her photos.

Love the positive vibes there! :):):)

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Oh wait! Fluffy found some new friends too!

Closer look at these cute furry ones!

(Photo by RHQ Rabbit Headquarters)

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And check out the salad bar.. For rabbits and small animals!

(Photo by RHQ Rabbit Headquarters)

Bought a box of these for free! Wow!

Wow, check these out too!

(Photo by RHQ Rabbit Headquarters)

(Photo by RHQ Rabbit Headquarters)

I'm so gonna get these when I have my own house next time!

Currently I don't have extra space for these in my small room.. >.<

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Was sitting down while waiting for the contest to start.

This friendly little girl started chatting with me! ;)

It was really very enjoyable!

She came with her family and they brought quite a few pets along!

Even showed me her pets and asked me about Fluffy.

Heehee!

I simply love kids and animals!! ♥

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Saw this girl who looks like Mocha!

(Mocha girl girl, I miss you so much.. 

You will never be forgotten!

Always in my heart~♥)

So many fellow dog lovers and adorable doggies!!

Pets are like our furry babies who "never" grow up..

Or rather, we will always treat them like babies! :)

#OnlyPetOwnersWillUnderstand

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And guess what??

Fluffy won 1st Prize in the Best Dress Contest!

WOW!

While being 'showcased', Fluffy was so obedient and stayed still most of the time!

Wow, I'm so proud of her for that! She really rose to the occasion.

(Was expecting her to be restless or perhaps, freak out and do weird stuff.)

And that meant more to me than winning the "Best Dressed Contest", to be honest.

I love you, my dear little Fluffy baby!! ♥

Was pleasantly surprised by the reactions from those who saw her.. Haha!

So many people wanted to take photos of her!

She was like a little celebrity!

Thank you for liking my precious baby.. :)

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We were all getting tired so it was time to go home.. Almost!

Brought Stacci to eat ice cream before heading home.. Keke!

Ice cream is ♥

(Can the day get better than this!? 

Thank you God for the wonderful day!!)

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Ending the entry with a happy group photo! 

(Fluffy looks ultra cute here!)

More close up shots!

SO CUTE!! ♥♥♥

Photo taken by the official photographer!

Can you spot Fluffy? Heehee!

The event turned out to be a lot more fun and interesting than I expected!

Once again 

thank you RHQ Rabbit Headquarters for organizing it!