Today is just a day like another any other to me. (Except that I get half day off! Heehee!)
Dates, like our ages are mere numbers.
Be it last day of the year or first day of the year, everyday is a gift. 😊
After the recent scare, I'm grateful for every single day!
Because my darling Cookie is still alive and in fact, her health seems to be improving!
Plus I have Fluffy, my loved ones and precious friends who are with me everyday and not only during special occasions. Heh!
幸福就是这么简单～❤️
Nonetheless, we tend to take our simple bliss for granted so it's good to remember every now and then, I guess!
Lately Cookie has been looking so, so tired and getting slimmer each day. Looking back at the recent photos / videos I took, I realised she hadn't smile for a long time.
Dug through my IG posts and the last time I captured her smiling was 11 weeks ago!
Will I see my darling girl smile again?
Sometimes I wonder if we should tell her it's okay to let go. But I can't bring myself to tell her that.
Each time she couldn't even stand on all fours, my heart ached. I couldn't breathe. My eyes got teary.
And each time she would show me a glimpse of hope and make me believe in miracle by standing up and walk. Thank you, my darling baby girl!
Cookie is such a fighter. 2 years ago, her kidneys had problems and there was a fatty lump. The vet said she won't make it. She did. Afterwards she had stroke. Then another stroke. But she kept going. And eventually she could walk as per normal again. Then she can't see anymore due to cataracts. But she still continues to walk on her own.
Lately she was hospitalised because the growth in her stomach was affecting her food intake. The vet said she is not going to survive for long because he never see a dog live past 18. Cookie is 18 years old. And 5 months, to be exact.
But Cookie still enjoyed walking around the ward every day while she was there.
The vet also said, Cookie is the only dog he has seen, who is 18 and still able to walk on her own.
Nowadays I don't know which is more heart wrenching. To see her losing her vitality bit by bit with each passing day or to be separated from her physically. (I hope we can still stay together in spirit. Please let me be psychic and can communicate and see animal spirits.. Please!! I miss Mocha too..)
Praying for a miracle that Cookie can get stronger and regain her smile again!
In fact I think it's awesome that she continued moving even though she's not good in it. It's common for people to do the wrong moves. Just that she's doing it with those who are familiar with the moves, so she stands out as the "odd one". If I exercise with a group of pro instructors, I will be the odd one out too.. Then I should be laughed at?
Exercise should be encouraged. We should judge or laugh at a beginner. Anyway, we exercise to be healthy, not for show. So does it matter whether one does it beautifully or not? Those who find this funny.. Are YOU exercising like her although you can "do it better"? The only time we should pick on one's form when exercising is when he/she is doing wrongly and may get hurt.
I totally understand how hard it is to overcome the fears and actually start exercising (especially when we are so bad at it). We are self conscious and thinking, "Omg I must have looked so clumsy and ridiculous!" But we still try. So please don't laugh at us. Encourage us and give us time to improve instead. Practice makes perfect! ♥
In the past I didn't dare to attend exercise classes or go jogging.. Which in turn caused me to get fatter and fatter. (Haha!) But thanks to my FHI and Kpopx Fitness, I started exercising and now I feel A LOT more confident in myself. I actually attend exercise classes and jog on my own now. Even if I'm still not very good at it, my coordination has improved a lot and I always have fun during the sessions. (Once, I joined the exercises at this KpopX Fitness outdoor event and a stranger actually asked if I were one of the instructors. Wow! 我像吗?? *暗爽* LOL!) Spread the love~~~♥
And if you haven't been exercising already, I highly recommend that you give it a try!
It has so many benefits! :)
Feeling so shagged and weak after visiting Cookie.
So focused on her until I was so close to this ex female actress but I didn't recognize her at all.
(Apparently Cookie is more 识货 than me because she walked over to her to let her pet.)
Oh, and I just remember that I haven't eaten anything for the whole afternoon.
(No wonder I feel weak now.. Haha!)
Dozed off in the bus like a pig and woke up just in time to alight at my stop.
She can be discharged tomorrow morning! But the battle is not over yet!!
Let's create another miracle together again!
Many thanks to all the encouraging words from everyone!
Glad that I don't have to go to the pet hospital and see animals being sick after Cookie comes home tomorrow.
My fragile heart cannot take it..
The things I took for granted in the past: Cookie running as fast as the wind; her eating her food and still eyeing mine; her pestering me whenever it was raining (she was scared of rainy days) or when she wanna me to bring her out for walks; I had to minimise my movements whenever she was asleep because she would wake up at the slightest sounds..
Now, I am grateful that she still walks, even though she wobbles a little; I hope she can eat something every day (When I stroke her, I can feel her bones and hardly much flesh.. She used to be so fat!); every time she comes to my room is always a pleasant surprise for me; many times my heart almost stop because she didn't wake up even after I nudge her! Words can't express how grateful I am whenever she wakes up..
Sigh, time flies. How did 18 years pass by so fast.. How I wish she can live as long as us. So afraid to be away from her for too long in case I am not around when I should be. But I must say, thank God for letting her stay with us until now and in such good health (for her age)! That alone makes me feel that my life is perfect and it's perfectly okay if I don't have wealth, fame, blissful marriage or whatever. :)
Gonna try and fatten her up a little! Wish me luck!!
Was randomly listening to songs in Youtube when I came across this!
Had the urge to sing this song when we went ktv for Orl's hen night the other night.
But sadly, no one else knows about this song so I couldn't sing it. Bleahz.
Still remembered that I got to know this song because I bought this "chiong-ed" CD (opps) for the sake of Celine Dion's "My Heart Will Go On" and this song was included as well.
Mama had told me that my sis and her family would only be home tomorrow..
Was walking home when I heard the most precious and lovely voices yelling excitedly, "AH MAI!!"
OMG OMG OMG
THEY ARE BACK AT LAST!!
Miss them so so much!! ♥♥♥
Steffi and Stacci said they wanna follow me so only Leroy went out with Sis and Steven. Time flew back so fast and it was time for them to go home already!
Will go to their home to play with them as soon as I can!!
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All of them will always be Ah Mai's little darlings! :)
But instead of feeling relieved, I'm feeling sick now. Hands are still icy cold too!
Kinda nauseous and my chest feels tight too.
Having a headache as well!
Previously I was quite confident that I can pass. After all, I only need to get 10 out of 40.
Now.. I am not sure.. But I wrote 4 pages.. Should be able to get 10 marks??
Don't know if it was because I stressed myself too much. Or because I am not used to bringing cheat sheet in? Feels so strange to be "copying"..
Had a mental block and it took me a good half hour before I decided to do Qn 2.
But after writing 1 page, I decided to do Qn 1 instead! Oh nooo..
Just now I almost wanted to give up because there was barely half hour left, my hand was aching and I still had about questions that are worth 20 points not done yet!!
Really took me a lot of mind power to focus and scribble in crazy speed..
Well, I tried my best. I hope I can pass..!!!
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Slowly calming down by the time I wrote until here.. Heehee!
Still worried about the result but worrying won't confirm my pass lah!
If I already can pass, aren't I worrying for nothing?
Shall go and get my M1 SIM card now~~
Can't wait to start using my new iPhone FULLTIME!
(Currently I can only use it when there is wifi because it has no SIM card yet.)
Been thrifty for a while but for my hair.. BUY BUY BUY!! :D
Styling products
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Babyliss Hair Dryer
Super love this!
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Bought Magic Hair Leverag!
To be honest, I didn't believe they would work.
Bought many random hair gadgets and none of them seem to work as promised.
But I thought Steffi and Stacci would probably have fun playing them.
Aiya, so cheap only..Just buy and try lah! Haha!
Saw some related videos..
Example of Fail Attempt
Hmm..
What we can learn from her experience:
1. Don't attempt this when you are negative and doubtful that it would work.
2. Ensure your hair is tangle-free.
3. After part of your hair is inside, push up the spiral thingy and hold the upper half of the stick to prevent the stick from snapping into half when you tug at it.
(Re-watched the video after my first attempt in using them. Eh, I had no problem at all.
Can't help wondering.. Is it THAT hard? It's so simple that I think even my nieces can do it.)
Example of Successful Attempt
(Of course, it's BUBZ.. Haha!)
MY ATTEMPT! Haha!
Actually it was super easy and fast. I had fun doing it!
Went to bed with these.. Lalala~
Wasn't expecting much results actually. Just try lor.
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The next day..
Wow, all the pieces stayed on and none of them drop off despite me turning in my sleep!
Have announced Fluffy's true gender in Instagram and Facebook but I haven't blog about it.
Actually this draft had been sitting inside my "Drafts" for days but I never find the time to finish it.
So here goes.. Shocking Realization
The other day, I was giving Fluffy a thorough powder bath and I noticed..
..Testicles???
WHAT??
OMG! Fluffy is actually a BOY!!
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So Hurt..
Told my friend about Fluffy's gender and she teased me for being a bad owner because I got Fluffy's gender wrong.
But the truth is, even the seller told me that Fluffy was a girl too!
So obviously it wasn't obvious that Fluffy was actually a boy!
And I don't blame her because I know it's really difficult to differentiate the genders for young rabbits.
Besides, Fluffy was only about 2 months old then! I did double check on his gender but there was.. eh..
Really nothing there yet leh!
And when I happily told them how much Fluffy loves head rubs and his cute reaction to my head rubs every time..
The same friend commented that he is stressed and yet I keep giving him head rubs.
Urgh.. My heart got wounded again!
(Or perhaps I am too fragile.. T.T)
But but..
Am I the kind of owner who can't tell if MY pet is stressed or happy??
Am I the kind of owner who enjoys torturing MY pet??
Whenever I give Fluffy head rubs, I can tell that he loves them so much.
I can also sense that he is happy and hence, I would feel happy with him as well.
I treat them as my close ones, which is why I shared my precious experience with Fluffy with them. But yet..
Those happy and special bonding moments are perceived as causing stress to Fluffy!! :'(
Am I such a bad owner..?
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Just to prove that I am not giving excuses..
FACT 1
You might think determining rabbit gender is straightforward, but pet store staff, pet owners with unexpected rabbit litters to re-home, and even animal sanctuaries regularly get it wrong. The male genitalia so obvious in other animals are hard to see on rabbits
Even the meanest, angriest bunny loves head rubs. To give your bunny head rubs, very gently rub your fingers from its nose up to between its ears. You will probably find that your bunny relaxes and lowers its head for you to give it more rubs.
At the end of the day.. I guess I need to believe in myself..
But whatever it is.. Honestly I still feel bad for not discovering Fluffy's correct gender earlier!
I guess that's why her words hurt me so much.. Kinda like adding salt to my wounds.
But seeing him happily munching on his food, enjoying the head rubs I give him and lazing there in contentment..
I wonder if I am just being silly and overly harsh on myself. He prolly don't even care about the gender blunder. :)
Sometimes I feel that animals are actually smarter than us because they know how to take things easy and enjoy the simple pleasures of life. ♥
So enough emo-ing! Ending this post with these cute photos! :)
