Got A Scare!.

Got home and saw Cookie lying at her usual area instead of walking around the house.

She seemed to be very still.

Went to nudge her.. But she didn't wake up. Was she still breathing?
Continued nudging her.. Still no response.
After what feels like a long time.. She woke up!

Thank you God. Phew.

She still seemed tired though.

I hope her exhaustion is because someone brought her out earlier today.. 

Not because her health is deteriorating.

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Fed her some treats.. Got good response.

Brought her out for a walk.. Got good response. 

Hmm.. She should be fine? 

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Suddenly had the urge to take a lot of photos and videos of her!

She looks so cute and young here!

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Taken when we got home after the walk. 

She totally ignored it even when I hanged my mookaite jasper bracelet on her!

No reaction.

Still no reaction..??

(Put it for a while just to test her reaction.)

Is she really okay..?

Nonetheless, I told myself to STAY POSITIVE!

Goodnight!

Everything will turn out to be fine! :)

被遗忘的回忆

一转眼6年过去了。

今天我看到了这个..

那时候的我很高兴他 'liked' 这个 post.

那时候的我.. 

以为我们会一直在一起.. 

吵了又和好，和好了又吵。

不管怎么闹都无法离开对方。

那时候的我.. 不知道他暗地里做了什么事。

所以

那时候的我.. 很爱他。

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曾经彼此爱得很努力，很累。
曾经以为苦尽甘来，开心。

后来我终于明白“海鸟和鱼相爱只是一场意外” 的意思了。

没关系。

放下了.. 还是能留下美好的回忆。
一个人.. 还是可以过得很好。

喜欢现在的我.. 谢谢你。

I'm sorry, Cookie!

Didn't bring Cookie out at all during the weekend.

(Was too engrossed with this Korean drama serial. So bad of me!)

This morning when I was leaving the house, Cookie seemed like she wanted to get out of the house.

I'm so sorry, my love!

Gonna bring her out for a walk tonight.

EVERY night!

How could I take her for granted!

I need to cherish every single day with her!

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Been wanting to bring her to Bishan Park again.

Used to bring her there once a week.

Why am I so lazy.. Why!

Thank God for giving me so many chances to bring her out for walks.

I will cherish the chances in future!

Wait for me, my darling baby!

KTV Session with Elise & Affy!

Finally took some time to blog about this!

Here goes!

10 Mar 2016 (Thursday)

Supposed to meet Jas honey for movie but she couldn't make it in the end.

Only left Elise and me.. And then I remembered that Affy wanted to meet us previously.

Just nice! We 3 can meet!

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At the KTV..

Haven't seen Affy for a few years but we were perfectly comfortable hanging out together.

Took this photo after Elise took a (similar) photo of me singing. (Please see below.)

Elise's version!

Affy (who was busy singing) became our "backdrop".. Haha!

Photo stolen from Elise's Facebook..

FINALLY passed this to her after.. 7, 8 years?? LOL!

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Photo of us after the KTV!

(Photo taken and edited by Elise.)

Me looking at the wrong place as usual.. Haha! Where's the camera?? Opps.

Noticed the green lights and Elise suggested that we take a ghostly photo.. LOL!

(Photo taken and edited by Elise.)

Her Facebook post.. Haha!




Hahaha.. Loves talking nonsense with her. LOL.

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Back home~ 

Snapchat-ed! (Because I rarely doll up.. LOL!)

Oh, oh! I super love this new rabbit lace-y top!

Me and my darling Cookie love ♥

(Disclaimer, it's just the angle and color. I never make my face slimmer in the 2nd photo hor!)

One last snapchat before I go to bed.

(No editing. Haha, too lazy.)

It's been a long while since I had such fun!

Hope to meet up more with them!

So missing the good, old days.

Random Thoughts

And It's All Coming Back To Me Now

Previously, a 14-year-old boy committed suicide by jumping off his block.

I understood why he did that but I had forgotten how he felt.

Until last Saturday, I remembered that feeling.

It was triggered by a very trivial matter.
At least it is trivial to me NOW, after I've calmed down.

But at that point in time, it was enough to push me off the edge.

Like, literally.

I remembered glancing over and thinking that jumping down isn't that scary.
But problem is, was it high enough to die from this height?
(When I am at my normal self, I am scared of heights, by the way.)

But

I Will Not Kill Myself

Never will.

This is because I firmly believe that it's a test for me to overcome.
Committing suicide is like submitting an incomplete answer sheet and leaving the exam hall before the time is up.

No way. I am NOT giving up without a fight.
I am not going to "repeat this module". I don't want to relive this kind of life again.
I am going to pass this and move on to the next lesson in life!

Thank God for the Hopes

While I was feeling unwanted and worthless.. Friends offer concern to me.
I needed that.

Thank you everyone! May God bless you all.

My Most Desired Wish

My last "dramatic" post before I ended my emotional outburst in Facebook was this.

Still feel a bit emotional when I re-read what I wrote now.

Especially the last part.

I really, really wish to have some love and family warmth someday.

But oh well.

Even if I can't be born into a loving family..

Even if I don't have the luck to find the right guy to create my own loving family with..

I can always count on little furry angels to form a loving family with me.

 

(Mocha may be not in this world physically anymore but she is always in my heart.

My house will always reserve a place for her!)

Thank you to my furry family who have always been there for me all these years.

(Except Fluffy who just came into my life last year.)

I love you all and I always will. ♥♥♥

Happy Birthday to Elise!

Was digging out photos to do this collage for her..

And realised that we have known each other for more than 8 years!

(Fortunately, we don't age much. Heh!)

Time really flies.

We clicked.

We argued.

We made up.

We argued again.

We parted.

We found each other again.

But I guess we never really left each other. 

Haha!

Cheers to a long friendship~

May she remains happy and healthy always!

人为什么结婚？

越来越不明白“婚姻”到底是什么。看着身旁的朋友们接了又离.. 有些甚至很快就找到另外一半。
他们曾经许下的承诺算什么呢？结婚时说的那些.. 只是在演戏给大家看吗？拍完就忘了吗？

连Selina和曾经对她不离不弃的阿中都离婚了。天啊！太惊讶了！

现在的我还是比较喜欢单身。自由自在，无忧无虑, no drama! 不用照顾别人! 不用老是生气.. Haha!
(难怪神仙不能谈恋爱~)

每次都有人问..

X: 你几岁

我: 34 (as of this year, haha)

X: 结婚了吗?

我: 没有

X: 那你有男朋友吗?

我: 没有

X: *用怜悯的表情看着我* 哦.. 放心, 你迟早会有的..

Or worse:

X: 你错了。你有问题。对付男人, 你应该要这样..

什么跟什么嘛?? 我真的，真的很喜欢现在的人生。管好自己的感情吧。

你们的烦恼肯定比我的多，好吗! 

(我要找的是一个 lifelong partner.. 不是一直听话的狗! 就连我养的狗都被我尊重，好吗! )